Thursday, May 19, 2011

I LOVE YOU

Yes , I still love you. Its hard just to let go after all those hard months I've been through. Yes, he BROKE my heart, stammered into pieces. Do I care ? Nahh , not at all.  Yes, i do feel the pain. It bleeds every time I see the flashbacks. Everyone keeps telling me to stop hurting my heart and take care of myself. FYI, I am taking care of myself. Its just, I can't helped myself when I missed him. WHY ? WHY ? WHY ? Why must I stay in this town ? Why can't I just move away , FAR away , to FORGET all this hurting pasts ? WHY. I always ask myself that question. 


He's right. I do get OVERACTED. Ohh , now I just want to forget things. Like what i wrote here.
Hoping he'll give me time to get over this. I started to be as quiet as possible. It is hard coz I already make him as my INSPIRATION , my HAPPINESS , my LEARNING SPIRIT. Yeah , he might NEVER have thought this in his mind , how he can be VERY SPECIAL to me. 


FYI my dearest, Kau adalah manusia yang baik. Aku tak pernah cakap kau jahat or kejam or yang sewaktu dengannya. You're not a LIAR either , you're just SCREWED. You need help, but you act like you're so strong ,facing all by yourself.  No matter , I'll take the blame you gave me. 


Sorry isn't enough right ? Well I don't think you ever give me some space to apologize to you. Chill my friend, I'll be gone after this year. 2011, tahun terakhir kau akan bertemu dengan aku. Aku harap jika kau ada masalah atau tidak puas hati dengan aku, aku nak settle dengan kau tahun ni, HARAPANlah kan ? Kau dah bagai bersumpah takmahu cakap dengan aku. 


Aku harap kau gembira, kau dah ada GF(Girl-friend or girlfriend) kan ? Haa , make sure dia happy kan kau. And heyy , it is okay and NORMAL lah kalau ada orang yang boleh baca kau. Takpayah gelabah sangat nak nafikan. HAHA.


Aku happy je kat sini. Aku happy sebab kau dah jujur. I waited long for this call , kau tahu ? Nvm lah , segalanya tentang aku amat tidak penting dan tak akan jadi penting untuk kau coz aku ni just a part from your dreadful past KAN ? 


Ohh ohh , IF we EVER meet again , please say HI. I mean , kita bukannya akan jumpa lagi EVERYDAY. The percentage untuk kita kerap berjumpa amat TIPIS , so takde hal lah kan .  This one favor I ask upon you , just say "HI" to me , the next time we meet (that might takes a few years later , HAHA) Dan aku juga rasa , favor ni isn't a big deal coz later on ,  kita akan GROW UP then , busy dengan university's assignments , then carrier and of course by that time kita akan lupa pasal hal ni , DAN kalau imbau kembali pun kita akan gelak and cakap , BODOHNYA aku masa tu. KAN ? KAN ? Tak percaya ? Takpe , wait and see. Aku rasa kau yang akan gelak terbahak-bahak and sampai aku rasa gelak kau sebijik macam ANNOYING ORANGE. rofl.
Kan senang kalau aku boleh bakar past aku macam bakar kertas ? 


Anyways , aku jadi FUSSY lepas kenal kau, fussy dalam relationships and ALL. Wow ? Besar gila effect kau kat aku kan ? Well , kau kan macam RAIN. Hujan yang sentiasa membasahi bumi dan menjadi faktor kesuburan bumi.(In other words, Rain is the factor of living beauty on earth) HAHA.
Rain ~~




Wahh , panjang lak entry aku masa pagi - pagi ni. Hmm ~ SPM. Arhhh , kacau daun. Haha,. I hope All's well Ends well.  Okaylah Mr ignorance. Daa~ Aku nak makan, taknak gastrik lagi. Sakitlahh. HEE !

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